Day 185: The Offering

July 3, 2016June 29, 2016 / EYHCS

I did not learn, because I took the offered advice.
Sure, I listened.
I might have even been seen taking a few notes.
Yet, the learning came from living and not just listening.

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Day 100: Brick Wall

April 9, 2016April 5, 2016 / EYHCS

I might hit my head up against a brick wall once, so I can experience the sensation. However, doing it twice is like going back into the fire after narrowingly escaping the flames the first time.

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Day 97: Social Media Relationship Status

April 6, 2016April 5, 2016 / EYHCS

A Lifetime Ago

My social media relationship status unless married or maybe engaged is like your time of death. Unknown by everyone except God and the Angel(s) sent to see you through.

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Day 96: Sponge vs Broom (Knowledge vs Emotion)

April 5, 2016March 31, 2016 / EYHCS

Being a sponge when knowledge is the objective is an edifying process. Simply squeeze the sponge when the source of knowledge moves from objectivity towards subjectivity.

Being a sponge when emotions are on the table is a dangerous dance. You can trap other people’s feelings into your own consciousness. In this case, be the broom and not the sponge.

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Day 52: Powers Differences

February 21, 2016February 22, 2016 / EYHCS

I cannot, does not mean I will not. Sometimes it just means – I know I should not.

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Day 51: Letting Go

February 20, 2016February 17, 2016 / EYHCS

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Witness the first day of the rest of your life, choose to let it go. Choose to let it out and without any doubt.

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Day 49: This is Your Life

February 18, 2016February 15, 2016 / EYHCS

No one is responsible for who I am. They are only responsible for who they are with or around me. The first step of reclaiming your life is to own what you allow in and a part of your life.

That’s why it’s called… Your life!

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Day 48: Be S.M.A.R.T.

February 17, 2016February 15, 2016 / EYHCS

Buying a car without buying gas is like creating a plan without creating goals.

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Day 47: Recognizing Closure

February 16, 2016February 15, 2016 / EYHCS

At some point the battle has to be over.

Even Jesus said, “It is finished!”

And, he came for whosoever.

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Day 44: Emotional Hostage

February 13, 2016February 12, 2016 / EYHCS

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Have you ever been an emotional hostage?

Would you know?

I didn’t.

What does one look like, you ask?

How do we identify one, you ponder?

The answer is elusive.

How can you be an emotional hostage if you possess no real emotions?

Where can I find one, you inquiry?

Hopelessness colored by glossy eyes, chirper ideas, and silent tears.

Where’s the mirror?

Whose reflection is that?

Yours declares the heart.

I never knew I was an emotional hostage until one day I wasn’t.

I never knew I packed away my emotions until the movers unpacked them.

I never knew the other side of me until we were free.

I never knew I just needed to make it through.

Then one day, I stopped speaking to prevent the reactions of others.

Then one day, I stopped living to curtail the viciousness of others.

Then one day, I stopped dressing a certain way to conform to others.

Then one day, became another day instead of someday before today.

I didn’t know my ability to shield had shielded my emotional prison from myself…

until speaking didn’t curtail my living.

I just didn’t know.

But I do now.

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Day 43: I Am Beautiful

February 12, 2016February 12, 2016 / EYHCS

2015

I am beautiful.

No really, I am beautiful.

I am not just saying, “I am beautiful”.

I meant it, I am beautiful.

I am not beautiful alone due to the color of my skin.

I am not beautiful alone due to the contours of my face.

I am not beautiful alone due to the hues in my eyes.

I am not beautiful alone due to the curves of my hips.

My curvatures do make me sexy, but not beautiful.

I am beautiful, because my heart is pure.

I am beautiful, because my soul is lithe.

I am beautiful, because my words are serene.

I am beautiful, because my thoughts are motivational.

I am beautiful, because my tongue is inspirational.

I am beautiful.

No really, I am beautiful.

I am not just saying, “I am beautiful”.

I meant it, I am beautiful.

I am not beautiful alone due to the declarations of others.

I am not beautiful alone due to the color in my cheeks.

I am not beautiful alone due to my locks of hair.

I am not beautiful alone due to the bounciness of my breasts.

The bounciness in my breasts do make me exterior more attractive, but not beautiful.

I am beautiful, because I monitor what I spiritually eat.

I am beautiful, because I hold no malicious intentions against anyone.

I am beautiful, because I uplift even when I need to downshift.

I am beautiful, because even in acts of defense the goal is security and not annihilation.

I am beautiful.

No really, I am beautiful.

I am not just saying, “I am beautiful”.

I meant it, I am beautiful.

Are you?

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Day 4: The Mental Course of Success & Failure

January 4, 2016January 3, 2016 / EYHCS

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There are two types of people. The first type always seeks out the mistakes. The second type always seeks out the solutions. One of these will always succeed. The other will always have a reason why they did not.

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Day 1: An Interview with 2016 with a Cameo from 2010

January 1, 2016January 1, 2016 / EYHCS

2016: Looking back over your life, what are you looking forward to in the New Year?

EYHCS: That is an excellent question. <Ponders the question with a reflective countenance>

2016: Do you have an excellent answer?

EYHCS: Yes. <Replies with a dead and stark countenance>

2016: <fully engaged with hips seated at the front of the lounge chair> Care to share?

EYHCS: <continuing to be display a coy demeanor> Sure.

EYHCS: Change, affirmation, and fulfillment of promises are what I am looking forward to in the New Year.

2016: Wow, you don’t shy away from the complex, do you? <Centers left hand across chests in a faux humble fashion>

EYHCS: Never have and never will.

2016: How would you characterize 2015?

EYHCS: At times it was akin to Jack Nicholson from A Few Good Men with “You can’t handle the truth”. At other times it was akin to Rafiki from the Lion King with “Simba, he’s alive!” And, as the year drew to an close, it was Neo from the Matrix with, “I am going to hang up this phone and show the people what you don’t want them to see. The rest I leave up to you!”

2016: Any special resolutions for the New Year?

EYHCS: Not really. I am just grateful to be of sound mind and body after the last several years of testing and trying I have undergone.

2016: What type of testing and trying? How do you define testing and trying?

EYHCS: The simplest definition is the easiest definition. I have been tested mentally, spiritually, emotionally, physically, psychologically, and physiologically.

2010: I was there.

2016: How so?

2010: I saw it all unfold. Yet, I could not intervene. It was a battle required to define, affirm, and confirm her true character. I knew she could and would prevail. I just needed her to know the same.

EYHCS: It was hard at times. A lot of people look at me today and comment how together I seem. They don’t know how much it cost to not only appear this way, but to be this way.

2016: Cost?

EYHCS: Yes, the spiritual and mental cost. The breaking of beliefs to conquer one’s greatest fear is an enlightening and painful process. I mimicked the way Jesus’ survived and prevailed during his 40 days and nights of testing. Everything he needed to defeat external and internal enemies had already been deposited into him. So with private tears and public cheers, I marched on, until I could march out.

2016: Do you feel you’ve conquered your greatest fear?

EYHCS: Most days, I do.

2016: Willing to share it with others.

EYHCS: I feared disappointment.

2016: Disappointment?

EYHCS: Yes, disappointment. Disappointing others, disappointing myself, disappointing my ancestors <unrealistic>, disappointing my parents, and if I am honest, the disappointment of never being enough.

2016: What changed?

EYHCS: I watched my former self battle to regain control of the uncontrollable and win.

2016: How did that feel?

EYHCS: Good, no great! When the enemy saw me cower, the spirit saw me tower.

I watched mesmerized at times as obstacles became pathways. I silently praised in place as promises, visions, and dreams manifested around me and for me. I bit my tongue when necessary and raised my voice when required. I feel in love with me and I liked it! I hadn’t ever been in love with me before 2015, not really, but today I am and it’s great!

2016: Sounds like you figured some things out.

EYHCS: Some, but I have only scratched the surface.

2016: Any regrets?

EYHCS: No, this year was all about clearing up old regrets and living a life that produced no future regrets.

2016: How’s that?

EYHCS: I had to sacrifice my personal self to honor my spiritual-self several times in 2015. At times, I had to confront those who only sought the best for me, but couldn’t understand the choices I was making in how I dealt with certain situations.

2016: That sounds deep.

EYHCS: It is, but the deeper it got, the clearer it all became.

2016: Has anyone ever told you, sometimes your responses produced more questions than answers?

EYHCS: Yes.

2016: Care to add any more to that response?

EYHCS: No.

2016: Well, we’re day one in of 366 days. Care to share your plan for 2016?

EYHCS: Tried that once, the human mind could not comprehend the design.

EYHCS: So instead, in the words of one of my favorite characters, “where we’re going we don’t need any roads”!

2016: I can’t wait!

EYHCS: You don’t have to. You already know what is in store. I am the one who gets to discover it. Thank you for joining me in the journey.

2016: You’re welcome and thanks for sharing, EYHCS, it was a pleasure talking with you. Take care and see you on the other side.

EYHCS: Indeed, I pray you will {Insha’Allah}! One God, many names, and I love them all!!!

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Reflection: What I Seek, I Will Have

November 6, 2015November 6, 2015 / EYHCS

A reflection moment:

We receive what we ask for.

Our asking could be direct. Our asking could be indirect. Our asking could be subliminal. Our asking could be verbal. Our asking could be nonverbal. The reward is in the asking. The secret is in the unspoken request. The gift is received when patience outweighs and outlasts conventional expectations.

Case in point, the picture accompanying this post depicts a set of beads from Ruth Chris’ Steakhouse. Those familiar with the longstanding tradition of beads exchanges realize and recognize beads are only exchanged according to quid pro quo methodology. Most often the quid pro quo involves the receiver offering the giver a flash of flesh of the personal and private areas. In fact, the bigger the beads or collection of beads, the greater the expectation is for a peep show.

Earlier tonight while out with co-workers, I had an opportunity to break expectations, traditions, and the status quo. As humans, we are conditioned to ride the white line of someone else’s expectations forgetting we dictate what happens to us. Enjoying my evening out with the girls, Tracey and James arrived at the bar. Each donned the Ruth Chris Steakhouse beads shown above around their necks. I immediately took an interest in the beads. They were unique and I like unique things. While we engaged each other I could not stop admiring the beads. The more I looked, the more I wanted the beads. The more I wanted the beads, the more the wheels started turning.

I engaged James further. James appeared to be agreeing to part with his beads. I stated I would cross the bar to relieve him of his intriguing beads. In support of my statement, I crossed the bar as promised. James elicited input from Monica another person at the bar for information and validation of payment required to transfer his beads into my possession. Monica wanted no part of it and to be quite honest neither did I, but I did want the beads.

Out of nowhere, Tracey turned around and placed his beads around my neck. No payment required. No expectation for something I was unwilling to provide. No piece of flesh or flash of skin. There was nothing, but a willingness to deliver to me what I had crossed the bar to receive from someone other than the intended giver.

Take from this what you want or what you need.

What I take and hold on to is – the mind when properly charted is strong enough to bend tradition and conventional wisdom into rewriting expectations based on ones resolve to uphold their personal truths.

Thanks for the beads Tracey. And, thanks for the reminder that I never have to be anyone, except myself and what I seek, I will have!

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